Sea of Opportunities

 Wow - what a year 2025 has been.   I've accomplished so much -  Who is that person?   I'm having a really hard time with my identity now.   I see myself in the Ring camera and it doesn't look like me.   When you've been super obese, seeing yourself as a normal person, well, my brain just isn't making that connection yet. I did get an email this morning from Zozo Fit  that if I made my end of the year video - I'd be entered to win $500 !  How cool would that be !! Here's my end of the year video:  Pretty cool right?   You don't "NEED" the super suit to do scans, but I still have my original suit when I weight 300+ pounds - maybe they'll send me a new one if I win LOL  My coach with Macros Inc is running a new 6 month Challenge starting Jan. 5th.   I've gotta say I'm super excited to be working with her for another year.   She doesn't take clients anymore - she's moved up the corporate la...

 If you've never checked out Daily Om - I highly recommend it.   Lots of good information - and you pay what you can afford.    "How I hope to feel as a result of clearing what no longer serves and supports me is______." I hope to feel free.   The clutter has really sucked the soul out of my house - and the clutter, while not all mine, is suffocating.   I have a 4,000 sq foot home, and we probably use 1/4 of it.  maybe more since the kids do sleep in their rooms at night.   But I could have a beautiful home, with a gym, and a lounge for gaming, a sewing space, a comfortable, functional kitchen, and a back porch to relax on.   It's in my grasp - I just need to do the work and clear what no longer has a purpose in my new life.   "What I hope to let go of is______."  Years of accumulated stuff.   Did I buy stuff to replace the emotional attachments that were missing in my life?  Maybe. ...

It's really been an eye opening week/month/year.   Looks like my final weight loss for the year will end up right around 75 pounds for the year, and 165 pounds total.   Holy fuck batman.   I did it.    I'm not quite done yet.   I've talked to my Macros Inc coach, and we've agreed that I can shoot for another 15 pounds down.   Guess what - that'll be my high school weight.   I'll have lost exactly 50% of my starting weight.   I'll have lost a full person.   May I never find them again. Macros Inc is starting a new challenge Jan 5th.   Not the 1st, or 2nd, but the 5th.   For 6 months.   If I really, really buckle down, in 6 months I can make huge changes.   I've already told my coach I don't want to win - and I also uploaded photos of veggies to doubly make sure I cannot win - but I can win for myself.  I can sit down and figure out real prizes that I w...

  Whenever I decide to do a blog post - it's usually so I can remember something later.   First thing I do is go to my recent downloads for a photo. When I went to a photo for today - all the recent uploads were different colored Fruits and Veggies.   I'll share some down below - but the photos are part of a challenge in one of my Facebook Groups.   I've talked about Macros Inc often  - it's been my nutrition go to throughout.   I've been through different trainers during my time with my MI Coach, from Eddie across the pond writing my Erg workouts, to Phil who had the biggest heart and got me to start believing in myself, to now Andrew - who's young, and just getting started, and knows enough to keep me from hurting myself.   But all through my journey - my Macros Inc coach has been there.  Well, for an instant she wasn't - and we never figured out why.  My calls for help went unanswered, and instead of calling out a ...